Life always feels so much better when you try to do something hard that is right. My chosen feat for the week was to include the kid down the hall. He's in that impossibly difficult situation of attending BYU without being a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and so he has not made as many friends as his daringly cool personality deserves. He doesn't DO sacrament meeting, FHE, or home teaching, and so, many of us (including me) don't DO anything with him. It was time to change that.
We invited him over to play games, and he eagerly accepted. After playing one round of our "boring" game (his painfully truthful word), we sportingly agreed to play his. His was one of those games that have made sleep overs more interesting for pre-teenage girls for the last several decades where the loser has to perform some embarrassing task decided on by the rest of his conquerors. I was the "lucky loser" who got the opportunity to see just how creative his mind could be in contemplating torturous situations. After some trial balloons were shot down ("Make him go ask out a girl" --too embarrassing, for the girl. etc.) they decided on having me act like a gorilla down the halls of my apartment complex until I attracted a sufficient crowd.
So, I'm going to have to confess at this point that this sort of thing really doesn't embarrass me. My life has been one cascading parade of tripping over myself and dragging around toilet paper, so my humiliation receptors have become sufficiently desensitized. I went at my chosen punishment with all the vigor of a cat closing in on its tail, and was attracting a nice crowd of bewildered and amused ward members (Oh, it's just one of those monkey people again, let's get back to CSI). Then it went bad. An angry looking male storms out from a room, catches me mid-howl, and stuns me with "Could you be normal for a few minutes, we're trying to give our home teachees a blessing." OUCH! He pulled out the blessing card and I was trumped. My monkey arms lowered sheepishly, but before I could apologize he was back in the room. I felt bad, REALLY bad. It was the tragic frustration of feeling misunderstood and stupid all at the same time. I hoped those in the apartment would be merciful to their fellow ward member, who really had left all evil motives behind at the game table.
Luckily, I had a chance to glance at the home teaching message he would have given those girls before their blessing. President Eyring says, "We must forgive and bear no malice toward those who offend us. The Savior set the example from the cross: “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do” (Luke 23:34). We do not know the hearts of those who offend us. Nor do we know all the sources of our own anger and hurt." In the spirit of that message, I let the frustration go and felt confident that I had been forgiven.
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"In the quiet heart is hidden / Sorrow that the eye can't see." Probably my favorite line from that hymn "Lord, I would Follow Thee." Thanks for reaching out to those not of our faith :)
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